just a little while longer

And so, at this point, I have just confused myself even more.

When I'm surrounded by people who are just as passionate as I am about something in particular, I just feel so warm inside, like I'm on top of the world and nothing's wrong. It sounds cliche, I know, but I don't know how else to put it. Every week, constantly, things change so quickly. Throughout the day, I'm with people who don't really care, people who care so much, and people who care- but care only about half of what the rest of us really care about. (I apologize for my rant that may seem to make no sense in certain sentences... think about it. It should make sense at some point.) There are times when I wish I could just break up my day so that I could spend it by doing a few separate things, in which there are different types of people that are all dedicated to the particular subject/activity I'm doing at that time. What does this sound like? Doesn't it sort of sound like college? If you work hard enough, you normally go to class with people just as hard working as you. When you join clubs or other activities, you absolutely join with people who really want to be there. Everyone's in college already, there's no need to make that college application seem that much better than others. It is not to say that everyone in high school does that for everything that they do, but honestly, it's a disappointment to me when people join most activities just to seem more well-rounded. It does make it better to know if these people work hard- but passion combined with the hard work will always produce better results... in my opinion, at least.

In short: I want, so badly, just to be around passionate people. I feel so discouraged pouring my heart out and not getting a response. In other words, when I'm in an environment that has people that are pretty unmotivated, it really does sadden me... I feel alone, I guess. But hey.

I'm excited for college, now that I think about it this way...