What am I doing right now? No idea. I need a break to figure things out.
Saturday was the weirdest day in a while. Some of the events initiated the frustration I felt before and during Math Analysis today. It's starting to get extremely old hearing everyone complain about every little thing in band... Okay, let's look at this logically. Say things do really... for lack of a better word, suck. What makes you think having a hundred people complaining about it will make it any better? I don't see how people do not notice that a positive attitude makes things go that much more smoothly.
I also don't think people understand that, along with a few other leadership people, I have tried to develop the "bipolar" personality that is almost required for this. Generally, I do think I'm a pretty nice person. I'm strict because otherwise, things don't seem to get done. I'm strict because I care about what happens to the band. I'm not strict because I'm naturally bossy. But it almost seems like people think the opposite of all of the above. If it's not about me, it's certainly about other BCs... I certainly hope people don't talk about me the way some "friends" have talked to me about other people. Rhetorical Analysis: Any idea why I quoted 'friends' in the previous question?
If you're going to commit to something, you should probably think of the whole group, not just what you want... because it's a group effort, and everyone involved serves some huge purpose in it.
So many things have happened lately. Where do I start? I haven't exactly vented some important thoughts in quite a while. In fact, I probably won't do that for a while. I'm getting used to brushing things off after mini-rants. Actually, I'm trying to calm myself down about things. I think it's time to be a little quieter again. I'm too loud. I'm too happy when I'm happy, and I'm too mad when I'm mad. That sounded weird, I know... I think I'm going to start meditating.
In other news, I might post a Thanksgiving post on Wednesday night (in time for Thanksgiving, of course) and be all corny and whatnot. Shout-outs, maybe? All that good stuff.
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hi... livejournal seems to be very hard to get used to. its annoying me alot which is why i chose to use that one for my storybased blog, lol
i feel happy that you are reading my blog, i currently (after getting rid of a lot of so called "friends" have about 2 left and i dont think i have told them about my blogs yet. anyway, i haven't read through your blogs yet so i will start propper comments on entried when i do... from what i ahve read though you seem to be a freindly and interesting person
so.. yeah, anyway. this im me... Neko-San, of if you would prefer. Kim
elysee ! (:
lawl when are you going to write your letter to your someone out there ?! (: LOl i read Ilani's letter...needless to say I threw up from all the cheesy crap. just kidding, ilani. LOL.
ohmygod LOl i hate it when people complain constantly, oh gee wow makes me want to shoot them in the face. LOL. (:
meditating is the best thing especially when your mind is disconnected from your body and you feel at peace. it's sososo (: and i sleep really well afterwards. i stopped cus it's hard not to think before bed.
maggie you're gay.
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